Sunday, July 5, 2009

I'm tired

I don't even know if words can express how very tired I really am. This last two days it feels like my brain is bouncing around in my head and I can't get a hold of anything. Usually Yoga will relax me but yesterday as I stood in warrior 1 I just wanted to scream and go back to bed..... This is SO NOT LIKE ME! But I'm tired, cranky and really kind of hostile at this point. First I thought it was that I wasn't getting enough sleep, but really I think I'm getting too much.

Right now its like the world is being placed on my little bitty shoulders and I need to shake it pronto.

Most times if I write down what is bugging me, give it to the universe I feel better. So I'm gonna try that now here on blogger.

I'm tired of people that think they can get away with harassment. The person(s) I speak of are wearing me down and forcing me to lose my otherwise even temper.

I'm tired of looking for a house, tired of real estate agents (seller and buyer), lawyers, inspections, contracts, mortgage brokers, banks. Just everything involved, I was almost tempted to just give the seller that is holding up this process his number just so I could be done.... (Don't worry commonsense kicked in, its a BUYERS market and I need to just hold on).

I'm tired of this f$%king SLUMLORD that does nothing, speaks no f$%king English, tries to rip me off because I'm a woman, and then tries to get his wife to smooth things over so they can get their rent check.

I'm tired of dealing with this city! No one loves NY more than I but I really feel like removing myself from this city might make me happy. I love my career, I love the firm I work for but if they opened a one man shop in the smallest of small towns in GA, I'd leave this city faster than you can say Mayor Bloomberg!

I'm tired of feeling like I have no support system, yet I'm there for EVERYONE, anytime they ask. Hell even a rock needs the ground to lean on.

I'm tired of missing my friends. I wish they would all just move here or maybe I'll move down there.

I'm tired of people that don't listen to what I'm saying but still feel the need to give me their damn opinion. Sometimes a person needs to VENT and all you need to do is listen.

I'M
JUST
F$%KING
TIRED
and I need a break from all the hoopla that has become my rather stress-less life!

**** Here's to hoping I get back to my normal self in time for CJ's bday party. T-5 and counting

4 comments:

Coogie Cruz said...

*e-hug*

CurvyGurl ♥ said...

Hey babe! I definitely understand how you feel. Gosh, I think we assume things are ok when our buddies are really frustrated and just need to know we're there. I know we're connected via cyberspace, but know that I'm here if you need me. You were one of the first bloggers to reach out to me when I started, I'll always remember that :-). Everything will work out. Hugs!

clnmike said...

I wish I could pour you a drink right now.

Smarty Jones said...

To channel Whitley Gilbert and Debbie Allen, "Relax. Relate. Release!"