Thursday, September 2, 2010

Muladhara (ROOT)

Ever Thursday I remind you to pass by the sites of my SMM crew to catch up on the latest #womanslaw, today is no different. In The final installment The Jaded NYer is speaking to the Mother's in "B$tch You got Kids", swing by, tel her I sent you. ENJOY!


The first Chakra is Earth, and is located at the base of the spine.  This Chakra deals with survival and is blocked by fear. In order to open this Chakra you must let go of your deepest fear(s).

I consider myself a pretty fearless person, but when it comes down to it we all have deep dark fears, some legitimate, some we've manufactured in our mind. The manufactured fear are the ones that destroy us from the inside. Five years ago my biggest fear was failure. I had convinced myself that if I failed in my career I would be abandoned by people around me. 

Fast forward to today, my biggest fear is still failure. No longer does it center around my career, but in parenting my son. This fears rears its ugly head every now and again but specifically when I can't get CJ to sit and do his letters/numbers. And I leap into survival mode, No TV for him, 2hrs reviews, reading etc.. Awful for me, WORSE for him.  I've had to come to terms with a lot of things in the last week since I started this journey, the first being that my fears are unjustified, he's 4 he will learn to write his name, and all of his letters and I can't beat myself up, but more importantly him trying to quell these fears.

Second is not to pass my fears on to him. This was a BIG one, I caught myself telling him something about what boys that don't do their work end up doing and mid-sentence (and death stare from his dad) I stopped. My son is 4 for the Love of Obama, he's smart, happy, loving and attentive (most times) and I'm going to ruin that by being a battle axe.

I admit a lot of my fears are rooted in stereotypes people have of Black males and in wanting to protect him I'm projecting all of that on him! With that I set my fears free and allow the universe to engulf them.

What is your biggest fear? How do you plan to let it go in order to open up the first chakra? Put it in the comment sections or work on it on your own, but release your fear to the Universe.

1 comment:

Lina said...

My deepest fear is/was that the person I love wont love me or accept me as I am. I say was because I did love someone and he did love me, but he couldn't and wouldn't take my good and my bad. At the end of it I faced my fear, and I came out ok. The other part is only something time can tell, but Im not as afraid as I once was.