Friday, October 1, 2010

Svadhisthana

The second chakra (Water) is located just beneath the navel. This chakra deals with our sexual and reproductive capabilities. Blockages will manifest itself is guilt, emotional or sexual. In order to release this chakra you must first deal with pinned up guilt. 
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It took me a VERY long time to do this post, unlike the first Chakra I had no idea what I felt guilty about. I read and re-read the ways on cleansing the chakra and still nothing. Then last week after working from home for two days, bam it hit me..... But still it took another week and one day for me to post it. It's pretty personal and I didn't want to at first but how am I to gain inner peace if I don't face myself and the things that are holding me back. So here it goes... 

The one and only guilt I have is that I didn't walk away. Everyone that knows me knows that I am a giver. There aren't many things that are mine that I won't share but there are people in my life that are nothing but takers. Those people are the ones I should have walked away from years ago. I guess the guilt is not that I haven't walked away but that I've let them USE me for lack of a better word. Friends and family are always telling me not to be so nice (funny because other people think I'm not that nice) but I just don't like to see other people suffer.  When I hear that someone is having an issue my intuition tells me to help. I always think I'm blessed so it's my job to make sure others are as well. But there is some point when you have to say No and walk away.  I'm not that good at that. I mean I can say no but 9/10 times I'll try to find away to make it things happen. I've got to stop that, because in the end when my efforts are not reciprocated I get upset and start to feel bad about my choices. And here in lies the REAL GUILT. 

I give because I am able, and I should not expect that because I am caring and giving everyone else is. Instead I must be more selective in who I help and when. So I don't walk around feeling guilty or angry. In this post I've made the conscious decision to forgive myself and if necessary walk away from those that cause me to harbour these feelings.

I'll let you know how this is working out for me.. So far it's been hard but I've managed.

We all harbour guilt, what do you feel most guilty about? Can you forgive yourself so that you can move on?

1 comment:

GurlNexxDoor said...

I have been there! I love your blog--consider me a part of the peanut gallery!