Monday, April 11, 2011

Stop this train

"See once in a while when it's good

It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
'til you cry when you're driving away in the dark" -- John Mayer

This weekend while relaxing with no real firm plans I started thinking about how fast paced my life actually is now. Between my career, friends, marriage and trying to be a great mother I barely have time to breathe. I'm not complaining because I wouldn't have it any other way but I did have moment of "remember when your life was slower and YOURS". I think every mother has these moments, if they are honest with themselves. Hell every woman has that moment whether it be about career, whether to marry that good guy, decisions to have or don't have kids...the list goes on (and yes men have them too).

I remember when my only thoughts we're will my Nana let me lay on her bed while she watches "murder she wrote", now I barely have time to see her (I call everyday) and its a terrible feeling. Or will my mom let us ride our bikes off the block *looks at dusty bike*

I understand more and more the lyrics of the song quoted above because, sometimes I feel like if this train slowed down I'd be able to regroup, redo and live and delay having to worry about grown up worlds. Ah youthful thinking! So what do you do when you know that you can't slow down life? Well I am deciding to live a little more for the moment, starting with a week long vacation. C.J. will be with me but we will be out and about no matter the weather (Well with the exception of the devil's salt). I think that will help with my mood and my want to slow down life a little. 


MzInspiredMind81 said...

I feel the EXACT SAME way right now. Things at work are insane, class is insane, the kids extracurricular schedules are insane. I think it's time I plan a staycation before I lose it! lol

AZ Mom of Many Hats said...

I think every woman and mother feels this way some days.... I know I do. What I also know from my own life is that there is the other side of those days.... the days when those busy phases are over, kids grow and leave, jobs change or leave, day to day responsibilities dwindle and leave behind the " do I fill the time now?" questions. Hang in there, cherish the memories, each phase of life holds special gifts - even in the busyness and overwhelming parts of them.

This was a fantastic post....

Tyrone said...

This is right on time. I am realizing that I need to slow down, though I am relied on more and more. Stay steady. Great post.

Mommy Lisa said...

Ugh. Me too...I realize I need to just be in the moment more for sure.

♥ CG ♥ said...

Hey chica! Heck yeah, I do too. Even more now than ever.

BRAN said...

girl, you are going to stop taking away the anonymous commenter section. but I totally feel you, I feel like that a lot, it's normal & I don't think it will ever stop :/